Defeat is a State of Mind

I’m sick. I’m tired. I’m worn thin of all of the crap that people use to keep each other in check. Friends do it. Enemies do it. Family does it. Everyone feels the urge to push others down and support themselves. It’s like everyone feels as if they’re drowning… as if not pushing on others and not climbing to the top will get them killed because they’re so scared of going unnoticed or leaving this world unremembered.

November 9, 2011, 8:07 pm. This is that date and time that I have decided that I will no longer participate. I will no longer push or pull or allow myself to be pushed or to be pulled by others. I will make it on my own. I don’t need approval. I don’t need support. I don’t need to weigh myself against the world and everyone in it to satisfy some godforsaken, unnatural lust for attention. No, I will strive to be the person that I know exists. It’s a person a lot different that what the world might think. It’s someone that I know and you don’t. Don’t you see? I’m going to make it and many of you never will. You will continue to struggle and fight each other in the water trying to stay afloat but I have learned to swim and so I will swim away from the turmoil and distress. Since I’ve made this decision I can feel it. I am no longer limited to you, or you, or you. I am no longer chained by my friends’, teachers’, and parents’ expectations, or the standards of society. Their disapproval, their acceptance. It doesn’t matter. Nothing outside my aspirations affects me at all.

I have come to realize that Defeat is a state of mind and only you can consent to it. Only the person whom feels defeated can truly be defeated. So the solution is obvious. Never give in. Don’t be defeated. I finally pieced the puzzle together today. I told myself that I would no longer be defeated by you, or him, or her, or it, because I will no longer be comparable. Like apples and oranges… So to my friends, to my family, to my enemies, and most of all, to the anonymous reader, I would like to say this:

I don’t want your opinion. I don’t long for your advice. I don’t need your support or your criticisms. Likewise, you won’t ever hear me try to influence you in any way. I won’t tell you anything to sway you’re way of life. I won’t do anything to push or pull on you. Please respect me and do the same.