People Are Stupid!

          Why can't anyone take words for what they actually mean? Is everyone that read my last post honestly cruel enough to make it into something it actually wasn't even when it was already hurtful? To be one hundred percent honest, I enjoy wringing people out for the things they do to hurt me or my friends or to get in trouble, but there is no way on God's green earth I would say something to hurt someone that wasn't true. If you dare take anything I say and misshape it to any extent, you will be the one to pay. Believe me, I more than most, cannot stand rumors, and when I find the person(s) that started this one you're going to pay with your reputation.

A Day from Hell

          A average day from hell starts early. You can usually tell it'll be bad from the start because something always sets it off. For instance, you forget something you need for class like an important assignment, or you have to wake up early for a long trip. Something simple that just puts you in a wretched mood. You begin to feel sluggish and annoyed at every little thing that goes wrong. Then when larger things start to take turns for the worse you lose the sloppy, tired feeling and become confused and irritated with a lively vigor that confuses you to no end as it gradually turns into a frantic craze of hysteria. So... there are a few people I would like to tell something... Listen up because the horrible day you had on that trip was nothing in comparison.

          First you, the snooty little girl who's life apparently sucks ass. Look, I barely talked to you all day. I knew you were mad at me but to tell you the truth I couldn't have cared less. The one time I did say anything to you was when I was trying to get you to turn around in your seat. People were making fun of you and the way you were sitting, so I was only trying to get you to turn around. But apparently you can't stand to hear me speak long enough to take the warning. If for any reason the bus had stopped suddenly, your neck would have snapped on the grip directly above your shoulders. Stupid doesn't look good on you, so when you finally stop pitching a fit long enough to realize I was only trying to intervene in the ridicule, think twice before you come talk to me, because depending on what mood I'm in I may just throw you in front of a train.

          You! Don't tell me you didn't guess that! Don't tell me you had no idea that I would want to spend my day with you. At the risk of sounding feminine, I practically threw myself at you for weeks! Every single day in English! Ask Cruse. She knows. It disgusted her. Besides, I had told you the He had a thing for you. What made you so damn blind, gullible, foolish, stupid, and naive that you had absolutely NO idea that that was going to happen? I'm sure if it had been any other time or person I would have been completely indifferent. Yet thats not even the end of it. It gets better...

          You had the nerve to do what you did in that theater. Both you and your friend were all over him... and he was all over both of you. You both looked like a couple of grade A teases! He was rubbing your thigh and you were all over his legs! Even though nothing happened you still acted way to childish. But not only did you throw yourself at him you pranced around the mall with yet another him around your waist and on your hip! I was in shock. And yet you have the audacity to say that I was the one that tore your work apart? So much "work" you'd put into rebuilding the "friendship" between us? That's a load of bull. You were completely wrong to be mad at anyone other than yourself.

          Now you, the one "eagerly awaiting" this. I can't help but be a tad bit disappointed in you for not stopping the small orgy going on behind you when you saw it but I know know of it was your fault so I can't be mad at you... As long as you trace my back again in Latin sometime :D

          OTHER THAN ALL OF YOU, my day was not made any better when I got another glimpse of my most recent "family" once again going their own ways and leaving me behind. I feel as if I finally got to know these guys and as if I had found a sanctuary but it seems that they don't want me. I will do what I can to hold on but that can only be so much. I'm drifting away once again and not a single one is throwing me a rope save for Ash. If I cannot hold to this one I don't think I'll try again. These people are exactly like me in mind, heart, and spirit but I just can't seem to get a grip and stay with them. Besides I see the beginnings of not only a powerful, but quick self destruct amongst you. If no one stops it I wont have anywhere to go.

          Yet, all things considered, I do believe I'll be okay. I'll survive like I always have, silent and alone. You don't need to worry that I won't make it. I'm far to suborn to capitulate to the worlds natural and evil devices. I get too much enjoyment from the lonely and quiet life I live that not a single person knows about. Try me. I'll grapple with the world and fight to the death if I have to but I WILL NOT go down without knowing I did everything to prevent it.

          If you would like to see the commentary on the only person involved in the "Day from Hell" that made it bearable see my much more friendly side and read from The Love of Dante.

Time to Put My Own Head on the Chopping Block

          I was tired. I was stupid. I was Reckless... What I did could have killed us both, or worse, just him. He's a brother to me and I could have destroyed that. It happened without sign or warning; without time to prepare. I lost control and we nearly died.
          But like I said, if only he had died, it would have been far worse. If I had died, to be honest, I wouldn't have anything to worry about, and if both of us left I would be going straight to hell for causing it.
          "Oh but Kev what about the people that love you? What would they do?" Well... I don't know the answer to that. The first thought that comes to mind is that they would regret my loss. Then we make the spectrum a little wider and we see people that would chuckle behind their backs. And one step further we would go outside the possible close fifty people to the rest of the world, to whom I am just another statistic. Just another blip on the radar in a pool of billions...
          So to me, if I died, I'm pretty sure I'd be okay with it. But If I had killed my brother, and worse, had to live with it, I'm not sure I could stand to look myself in the face every morning in the mirror. I would never forgive myself, never recover. It would be over for me. I would rot in a hole for the rest of my life knowing that I was responsible for it.
          Regardless, We are both fine. We were both saved to die some other time. And though I fear that my levels of sanity are dwindling I can only hope everyone around me get such a miraculous second chance as we did. But what's certain for now is...

          The struggle for sanity and life goes on...

For the Love of Him!

          Come on!! really? is it really that hard to keep it to yourself? Do you have to wave it around in everyones face every day? What kind of person are you if you do that? I don't have words to describe how livid it makes me to see you all prancing and strutting around so hypocritically wearing lies of purity and love. It's sick, vile, disgusting and arrogant! Keep your damn religion to yourself!
          Okay. Now that we've established the problem I'm going to show you why its a problem so that maybe you'll get a glimpse of your own self centered stupidity.
          The Christian faith, (all branches and denominations) Is supposed to be a conceded one. Don't get me wrong, everyone has a right to defend their beliefs, but there is a difference between defending and proselytizing. I would never disagree with someone taking a public measure to defend their religion but only do what is necessary. Don't preach to people that don't want to be preached to. For example: A follower of the Christian faith is told to never deny God before their piers, but that does not mean that when your church buddy asks you to admit to the world that your Christian for the fun of it or just because he/she wants to see if you'll do it that it's okay to visit Facebook and announce to the world:


          "I believe in Jesus Christ & have accepted him as my personal savior. One facebooker has challenged all believers to put this on their wall. In the Bible it says, if you deny me in front of your peers, I will deny you in front of my Father, at the gates of Heaven. Simple, If you love God & aren't afraid to say it REPOST THIS! (Remember Matthew 10:32-33)" 


          This is all good and dandy to know but let me just say this as any other annoyed viewer might, I don't care. Your exercising an extremely large amount of pride and you might want to be careful; it's a "sin."  ;)

          Some things that get just look stupid when you do them. They get on my nerves and pleanty of others nerves because... well frankly it just looks stupid and does you no good:

• Wearing t-shirts with bible verses or anything involving religion.
• Standing on street corners and preaching to random people that have much better things to do (get a day job).
• Telling me that you'll "pray for me." That's bull shit. I don't wan't to be prayed for, saved, or fixed because I don't need to be, and why would you even feel the need to tell me if you weren't just looking for attention?
• Dramatizing and enlarging a religious argument in order to a attract attention. (just plain stupid.)
• Being bias towards people because of their stand on opposing religion.

An finally, stop discriminating against people that stand up to your religion and question it. They have the right to believe what they want and speak their mind. Leave them alone and get over the fact that they don't buy into your crap. Stop whining and suck it up like everyone else.